Haven't Met You Yet

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts

I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track

Talk myself in, I talk myself out

I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it

I came up with a million excuses

I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up

I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck

Wherever you are, whenever it's right

You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out

You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out

And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get

I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair

In love and war

But I won't need to fight it

We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing

And being in your life is gonna change me

And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out

And I'll work to work it out

Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get

Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out

And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out

And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get

Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet

Oh, promise you, kid

To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love

Love, love, love, love

(I just haven't met you yet)

Love, love, love, love

Love, love

I just haven't met you yet

Impossible is nothing!

hey guys its me again. and so i decided to delete Ema for a while. but i still love her thou, and its been a while, and i asked her PIN again. but she refused!
i don't wanna loose ya :'(
i love you em, God knows i do. i just wish we could continue where we left.
i can't begin to imagine how i can survive another day without you.
and guys i wanna tell you something about a dream i had the other night.
so here it goes.
i was just sitting in my room, and i turned on the AC.

i was gonna study, but its just sooo boring so i decided to take a brief break.
and i fell asleep. And i dreamed about her, yes you know who she is, i was driving with her on my side and we're going to the most famous mall in town.

and we were watching a movie and as i sat, she purposely sat down right next to me, it was so romantic for me, and she fell asleep on my shoulder. i held her soft arm, and i was stroking her brown hair, and when i was gonna kiss her, i woke up. even thou that's just a dream, for a moment, i was actually happy and i know its ridiculous for someone like me to get a girl like Ema.
But hey like a fat ugly man once said, impossible is just another achievable possibility!








TEEHEE!!!

bye kachindra

Hey guys, im back with some horrible news
my friend died today, exactly at four am this morning. we'll miss you, she was really-really nice, talented and cute.
Her name was kachindra, she is so awesome
Here's a pic of my good friend


her little sister told me about this morning when i was going to church and i kinda cry along the way.
We'll miss you a lot cin. may she rests in peace, sorry for what I've done that may offend you.
we love you so much

-Joshua

the next time

Hi guys
its me josh again, so today i found out that ema read my last blog, but it wouldn't be  polite to her boyfriend if i kept writing about her, but im not gonna stop, im just gonna think tonight, why cant she like me back? or at least appreciate my existence, i'll never know what she think of me. im just so glad how she said that she'll always like me as a friend, and that moment i feel that she's really being nice to me, for the first time.
its so amazing how she can turn nice at least once in my lifetime. i guess Jesus listened on what i hope and prayed every night. Thanks for making my wish come true ;')

its kinda stupid maybe to you guys but our little talks meant so much to me, i guess the little things that annoys her a little bit, can make one person like me so happy. Btw my mom is sick, please pray for my mom, thanks.
And when i woke up this morning i didn't think my day will go like this, thanks for today. i got so much i want.
especially with the news that I've been accepted at an International Mandarin school! and the bad news is im gonna be gone for at least 2 years starting next year, so those people who're gonna miss me, please say what you wanna say.
I'M GONNA MISS EMA THE MOST THOUGH

yeah, even though she might ignore me all the time, i'll still miss her. it might be stupid and silly, but that silly things are the ones im gonna remember the most

its not everyday you came by a girl like this, and she said her boyfriend is also reading my posts, she said hia cool with this so im gonna keep on writing. i know Ema might make me sad sometimes, but shes not always a mean, scary girl. once you see through her eyes, there's so much more to this girl.

hey ema, if you're reading this, thanks for being a friend all these years
im still gonna love ya
peace out!
bye

:)

first day

Hey its Josh, so I decided to make my blog a dude diary, I was gonna tell it to someone, but nobody's even care enough to listen, so here it goes. I'm just a teen boy, you can say, I'm a jerk. I talk a lot, I'm annoying, over confidence, and I judge people. But hey I am just a teenager, I'm regardless of what I am going through, but I can respond differently to make a change.

I'm not that great of a guy, life has taken me to meet many girls that caught my eyes, but none ever capture my heart. Actually, I have tons of options, but I choose to after this girl Named, Ema Gladys, she's a fun girl, she's damn beautiful, artistic, amazing music player, loves to draw. She's special, because she's the most simple yet complicated you'll ever gonna met.

No offense to her but she mocked me all the time, and most of the time, I just laugh, she was all, "Weirdo!" And I was like "Ahahahahahahahahahaha" okay this is kinda awkward. But you know when you're around pretty girls you're gonna be all nervous.
Moving all the way, she is amazing, I cannot explain because that's the best word I got.

Anyway, at 27 april 2012 I was walking with my best friend, he's pretty hackin awesome, his name's Benaya Arifin ( @benayadijee ). We like decided to go to the Mall, its pretty boring there, but its like always full.

And then we play games at the arcade, and went to the movies, and shits. Time flies when you're bored, we've been there for 2 hours, and we almost gonna go home but Benaya text Ema to meet up at the mall.

So she said yes, this Is kinda scary, so I just tell ben "Don't tell her I'm comin too or else she won't come." But then, we didn't she ema anyways, Before we go home, I kinda had this dumb idea to ask her who she came with, and she said.............


Her Boyfriend


A what the heck!!???!!
I thought she was single, I thought I'm warming up to this chic! I don't talk all the way home, and I feel like a complete shit! I can't begin to describe how sad I am and disappointed I am. I just can't take this kind of truth!!
We've known each other for a really long time now.
And she would tell me if she met someone. But shitly, like 3 girls ask me out and I left them hanging in case Ema breakup.

Well I guess this is it for today, I'll talk to you later.
Btw if Ema's boyfriend's reading this, whoever he is. Dude I just want you to know that you have a treasure on your hands, you don't make this girl upset alright? She's the type of girl who hates people that judges people by their looks, and she hates it when people look through her phone, she doesn't like it when you complain too much, you should share your problems, she loves her brothers, especially her little brother Tom. You don't get her upset, make her happy and don't let her down. Peace Guys!
Around the world!
For Generations!
Love You!
Bye!

friday

Hey Its Josh!
and its friday,
i really like Fridays because, its the last day of school for the week!
but this week is not as fun as i hope, i mean, i'm late for school for the very first time!
and if that shit isn't good enough, Wait...
Ema Texted Me!
she sounds mad.. lets hear what she has to say :
"Hey, is egh for me?"
What in the world is he talking about! of course that's not for..
okay she got me, i'm gonna tell her its for her..
she said i don't have to do that,
sometimes she's a little weird you know, saying these obvious questions.
of course i don't have too, but i want to, because you know, i love her.
and soo my story continues with a very special news! i learn how to play a new song  :
DEPAPEPE~START
its so hackin awesome. but my fingers still hurt from playing so yeah, i'm gonna lay down on the guitar for now.
and also i teach a friend how to play a guitar!!
this is so cool! i'm a hackin awesome teacher, i bet if i ever teach everybody how to play guitar, everybody will be awesome!!
moving all the way i wasn't really sure about getting new shoes but i finally did and its awesome!
it is awesome
Awesome...



and the funny thing is, people at school are starting to be friendly :)
and today i saw a bunch of videos about me and my friends 3 years ago
we were so cute, except for me, btw
hahaha so guess thats all for today
thanks
bye
ok you can leave
get lost!
dude you're stalking me!